we weren't happy now we are, right?

i read every single post in my archives, and it gave me a warm feeling inside but i feel kinda sad at the same time to know that i'm not, as cheerful as i am last time. it feels as though i'm in some shit second life or something. things are obviously different now, and i'm older. ah yes there are some, occasionally happy times but yet again, nothing compared to last year. 

i'm feeling like crap now, it's probably because of gp project. and feeling lonely. now i really really need some nice, good ol' company. 

!!!

(i'm actually listening to Daphne Loves Derby now)