what it feels like to be awake, just to know that nothing is real

Went to ngee ann poly for tta's gig, it didn't go that well. partly my fault too, sorry. Headed home straight after that from ngee ann with yasser, and talked. It's nice to actually get to talk to him, cause it's been a long time ha. After talking to him about school and shit, i just realised that i'm in a fucked up position. Make it or break it. To be honest, i'm not really doing well in school. mid years is coming, right after the june holidays. It's good that i don't have to wake up so early, or come home only at 11 after school. But i can't really take the holidays for granted, but i don't think mugging everyday is a good idea. Time management, perhaps? (i suck at time management tho :/) I chose to stay, so i shall bear the consequences. Fail with consequence, lose with eloquence and smile.

I miss the bunch quite alot actually, i'm pretty glad i got to see all of them today. I miss the post - O level holidays. We could do whatever, whenever we want. Nothing else is in our mind except for getting money and having fun. There was nothing we need to worry about too, except for our results but that's a different case, you should get what i mean. The gigs, madjack, etc. Life was fucking great at that time, i swear. But that was until i receive the sms from MOE asking me to report to some freaking school at fucking seven thirty in the morning the next day.

It was at like, 6 18 am at that time. I read the message over and over again cause i really couldn't believe it. Everything went crashing down. Wasn't in the best mood on the first day of orientation, came late. But i made really great friends though. That's the best thing about school now. It's too late to regret, and since i'm already in this school i shall just make the best out of things, give my all. Anyone interested in study outings during the june holidays?

yes, life's a bitch.

but we, can make things happen
what i really need now is someone, who believes in me, and give me the courage to move on.