They say what doesn’t kill the soul will make it harder but you can’t be a stone hearted man
And do you realize why you apologize, well it’s not your fault, cause we're all fucked up.
And do you really think that it’s worth it, to be all worried about time

Cause I know what you want, its not going to get you anywhere 

respect, walk

i find it hard to keep still

i'm home early, can't be bothered to go to malay and gp cause we are not doing anything much anyway. the weather today is ^(#&)&%0 one moment it was damn hot and humid another moment it was raining heavily. the holidays are here and i have no idea why i don't feel excited at all. probably because i lost quite a  i'm not sure whether i want to stay in millennia for the next two years. i'm not sure whether it'll work out, ugh A levels.

i'm tired and sleepy and very very hungry gosh i'm waiting for someone to get back home from CCA (ha i'm home early!!) so that i could send her cam.O songs.. meh i think i'll go grab something to eat and then i'll take a nap cause i can't take it already bye have fun during the holidays 

the way i feel inside

hello (woah ok they finally left, the guests i mean) i'm feeling very lazy today so, yeh anyway i got advanced to year 2 babe :]

bye

if we were a sinking ship, confide

haha hi how have you been. fxck okay i didn't know what to blog about the past few days cause life's been really really boring. i was down with high fever a few days ago and i felt like a total useless piece of crap cause i felt damn weak so all i could do is sleep, sleep, and yeh, sleep. i'm pretty much okay now headaches once in a while but everythings good. danish's still down with high fever though, he just went for a blood test just now. and he fell asleep after watching hannah montana.

exams results were quite surprising. thought i would do terribly for all the papers but i did quite well for my malay and mgmt of buz. i'm not sure whether i'll be promoted to year 2 cause my mid-years were horrible and i bet it'll pull all my marks down like mad but.. i don't know la we shall wait for tomorrow. oh i'm watching avenged sevenfold tomorrow 2 ahahhahaha.

okay i'm srsly damnnnnn nervoussss my palms are sweaty lollll help

(danisha where art thou)

everything seems perfect from far away.

(in poor health)

the glorious nosebleed

you know the feeling of giving so much into something you don’t even understand? yeh

this sort of thing gets you out of your mind before impact

My God,
So desperately I watch them calling for You.
To bring down your hands.
To make this all okay.
To make us whole again.
Us whole again.

school is getting boring. i can't wait for next tuesday. and life's getting boring too, well, a little. today kinda suck cause i was the only guy in class, the others was suspended indefinitely. plus i've been getting less than three hours of sleep every night simply because my biological clock is totally fxcked up.

the journey to school is boring.. like travelling to the other end of the world every morning. 

holy shit i'm still sleepy as hellllllll, i need sleep :(

Tragic Mirror

Here's a man, his own tragic mirror, capable of such crimes he is scared to look at himself too long at a time. Here's a man, his own wrapped up worry thinking he will do wrong very shortly.

The answer remains locked up in his head.

Here's a man aware of his defects such a sensitive soul such a rebel capable of detecting his flaws.

Here's a man self righteous, self pitying nursing losses and pain and inflicting guilt that should keep them busy for days.

And charity plays a game with your head it gets to you now, it gets to you now and vanity takes your dog for a walk it gets to you now, it gets to you now. Somehow youve got to smarten up

and act like nothing's ever gonna break you, break you, break your mirror in two.

Here's a man really worth the attention so mature but so dumb. In broad daylight the answer remains locked up in his head it's blowing around somewhere in his head.

shot through the heart

thanks mom, you have no idea how much it hurts 

a careless bird is complicated

an empty nest, still leaves a space

woah art tomorrow, three hours. killer. but yeh, last paper tomorrow! thank god it's in the afternoon. but i've yet to read up on the important topics like the ones on Marcel Duchamp and all the southeast asian artists. i'll read the notes after this, or tomorrow morning. i don't know, depends on my mood. i'm feeling happy, and not in the mood to study. 

heh s,  'i wonder why people bother about their private p..' HA

cause where the city meets the sea, i sit and the daylights speaks to me. she carries me awayyyyy.

A one hand clap is me and you
And you
And you
And you

While the hell outside´s kept away,
If only we´d moved away

Dis-a-ppe-ar!
Dis-a-ppe-ar!

They always say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself (Andy Warhol)

oh hi i've been good, but i haven't been doing anything productive the past few days. i'm supposed to study for principles of accounts and art but i know poa is a total goner so.. forget it i'll just aim to fail decently i guess. but i swear i'll study for art tomorrow because i'm aiming for at least a B grade.

so what have i been doing the past few days? sleeping for more than twelve hours every night (since parents are away), haircut = ah beng (im going to get another haircut tomorrow to trim my hair here and there so i look less, horrid), eating fast food, starbucks for three consecutive days, not revising for the two remaining papers.

tomorrow will be such a draggggggg, think three hours in the freezing torture chamber aka the school hall staring at the question paper pretending that you know how to solve the questions when you have no clue how to approach the questions at all.

ok best of luck to all

it's better to make mistakes now in this period of time, at this age. if there's anything that's bothering you be it like, whether you're in the right school or anything along that line, it's better to take action now than never. 

you have to make things happen. if you're waiting for something to happen, keep on waiting.

// Greenhorn Productions present STARS live at Esplanade Concert Hall on 7 Jan 09 ehehehe :-) 

hahahaha, zuckerfest :-) bye