i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name

i just got back from malaysia. it wasnt really fun but, i kinda had a good time. i love long trips. i'm very tired but i cant sleep. i wanted to meet up with kelana just now but i kinda changed my mind cause im exhausted, i dont have money, and i still wanna go out next friday to baybeats. now im alone at home with my sister cause my parents went to my uncle's house for some urgent, meeting.

okay im exhausted, i shall leave you with lyrics from What if by Coldplay.

What if there was no light.
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time?
And no reason or rhyme?
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side.
That you don't want me there in your life.

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a break jump over the side
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try?
Oooooh, that's right

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life.
That you don't want me there by your side.

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath jump over the side.
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try?
Oooooh, that's right

Just for laugh

totally made my day. haha

soul meets body

i have no idea why i'm feeling very very emotional right now. No, not emo. It's emotional. I dont know why. That explains why I changed my blog template and everything else. Exams or Prelims are in a few weeks time but what am i doing right now? I dont feel the urgency or whatever to study/revise. Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's because of all the things i hate that revolves around me. i dont know.

I keep reminding everyone to study because Os is around the corner but, sigh. What am I supposed to do now. I need to start studying everything from scratch. Chemistry, Physics, A Maths. Is it too late to start now? or tomorrow? Or should I just lay back and fail my prelims and O levels and go to a private school or retain sec 4. shit, no I dont want that. But I really dont know where to start from.

I wasted one whole year last year. I thought 'oh well i still have one year to study for Os.' but just look at me now, holy shit. I just wasted another half a year.

'Time will wait for no one'

i just need that one
thing. just one.
and i'll be happy.

pls.

trying to be
genuine is harder
than it seems.
somehow i got
caught up in
between.

between my pride,
& my promise.

Between my lies
& how the truth
gets in the way.

Sanchia, and I
are buddies.
haha. nothing
more than that.

and my brother's
name is Danish
Irfan Sahputra. :D

today's a little bit
better.

i'm sorry about
yestrday.
screw that asshole.

im super tired
i need sleep
i studied today
i need rest
i need music
i need sleep
i need sleep

good night.
good bye.
i love you.

FUCK YOU!

today, was good.

downdowndowndown

i'm down with flu,
fuck.
i dont wanna have
fever.

school today was
kinda slack.
4 free periods,
cos Ms C* wasnt
in school.
then had physics
and chemistry.

chemistry, had
timed assignment
on calculations.
wasnt as bad as
last week's
something Analysis

i wasnt feeling
well man, screw
Bowen!

and then before
the NCC POP i
went to asyraf's
house first cos
there's still
some time to
spare.

whoo i completed
like almost all
the goals for
his Tony Hawk
Project 8.
went back to
school after that.

the parade was
not bad i must
say. and thanks
for the food man.
haha. the video
montage was funny
and quite touching.

congrats to all
of you man!

eh Idris! WTFMAN
what happened to
you hahahha.
you're the only
casualty, alamak.

screw you!

i'll just wait and
see what happens.
i'll just play
along. haha.

sounds like fun.
sounds like fun.

fuck Chemistry.
and i cant believe
i said stockings
just now.

'Omg, you know what,
i miss you,
you know that. I
was so sad when
you stopped talking
to me and treating
me like this'
(aww im sorry, Mich)

school today was ok
except that i wasnt in
the best of moods.
and i cant believe
i survived 3 years.
haha.

for those sec2s
who didnt make it,
dont worry. its not
the end of the world
man! especially you
idris shitfuck.
i just hope that
the council board
wont turn into some,
geek club.
hahahha.

yay so no geog
test just now.
geog extra lesson
tmr. investiture
rehearsal tmr.
pe tmr.

im exhausted man.
and then im stuck
between NCC POP
and the thing
going on at NYP
this friday.

and eh MONITOR
WHEN THE FUCK
IS OUR CIP MAN!!
haha im a useless
chairman.

k out. bye.

now i know who
i am to you.
and im fine with
it cos i cant be
bothered anymore.

HELLOOOOOOO
GEOGRPAHY

i cannt imagine myself
with braces

hello, good day.
eh Asyraf,
Happy advanced
Birthday la brother
hahah.

and heard abt it
in school today.
it wasnt somethng
nice. but, its okay.
we'll try our best.

you'll see us someday.

at first it was napoleon
dynamite.

now's Isaiah Washington?

HAHAHAHAHHA

im still wondering whre
i got the 'i miss you like
a kid misses power ranger
for a month'

"I met a woman once,
I gave her my best shot"

"But never did I talk
and talk and talk"

the problem with me,
i think. is that, i talk
too little.

sorry.

CLICK HERE FOR SINGFEST INFO OMFGBBQSIAL

ok so i went to Rampage
The Durian day one.
it was, shiok. haha.
i broke my specs
but it was worth it.
the moshing was so
sudden. it was more
brutal then RFW.

i cant believed i
actually walk around
esplanade nt wearing
a shirt. sheeeat.

ah ok yesterday was
hella hella hella
funnnnnnnn.

k i need to study.
bye.

haha study.

i did my A math
homework.

i still have one
english compre
to complete.

but,
i ended up watching
TMNT the movie.

TURTLE POWER!

What the hell?

today's thursday.
PE was fun.
played rugby.
recess was after
pe. and then
it was A maths.
Integration is
not bad.
i need someone
to teach me
diffrentiation.

O lvls is in
3 mths time.
im only done
with geog.
S
H
I
T

but i dont
feel like
studying.

i dont want
to study.
but, i have to,
right?

i dont know
whether i can
get into Visual
Communication.

i need motivation.
i need pressure.

chemistry sucks.
fuck you Chem.
fuck you.

i need some time,
to reflect.

bye.

'Dammit danial:/ i less
than three you-'
?